i knew i shouldn't have looked... but i did.
I was almost reduced to tears and the ache
in my heart was hard to ignore...

oh whatever... it's just another of THOSE
days... i'll get over it. And i'll look back and
wonder why it even mattered.

so yea... those were pictures from the baby shower
that happened a while ago. I had so much fun
working with the decor. I mean, after looking at
so many blogs with fantastic decor and craft,
i finally got to try it out myself :) thanks to M.E.
for helping to make it happen.

hipstamatic!

the past week was full of activity! days mostly spent
in church supporting the IDMConference. It was so
much fun. Bonding with the crew... here are snippets
of the happenings...

so pple have been asking me, what was it that worked for you?
( "what helped heal your skin?" Well, it was God Who healed me.
Ok, what meds is it? :P

okay, Doc C.F. enters scene. "You need steriods." So i was given
steriods in oral form. They worked so quick, i was looking better
the following day. Then i downgraded to streriods in cream form.
Tubs, tubes of the stuff were stocked up. Including 500g tubs of
moisturizer. The application of the above was done twice a day.
Morning and night.

Around the same time, i was referred to a nutritionist. My diet was
restricted to mostly fruit and vegetables. I drank an all vege soup
during most meals. I was also on a detox program by New Life
International.


My skin started improving but it was slow. Then a friend
recommended Agel. i took Exo and Umi. Then a miracle... my
skin started clearing rapidly. By the 5th day my skin was all clear.
Oh yea.... :)

So yes pple. That was what happened on my road to recovery.

argh... i'm having trouble loading the pictures
of the weekend party onto my mac. Why huh...

So these will have to do, for now :)

ENT doc has given my mum the all clear :D woo hoo!!!
So after her appointment, dad bought her pork ribs to feast on.
So yes, she can finally have char siew bao (she kept requesting for
char siew baos in her subconscious state after the surgery).

there's going to be a party this weekend!!! M.E. and i made the
decorations this past sunday and things were looking good.
But the other night, i dreamt that someone cut my bunting right
down the middle. I guess i'm worrying too much about the party.
I think i should just let it go, like Yy said, it's going to be fine.
I'll post pictures after the party so look out for it. Theme colour
is PINK!

watch the trailer here. read about it here.
i'll most probably catch it... love the tone and pace
of the trailer. I bet the movie's going be even better.
Seeing the granny in the movie reminds me of my own.

mum's feeding tube is out. And no, she hasn't seen the doctor, yet. But because
it's causing her too much pain, dad said to take it out. And mum is a happy
lady :) yay. She looks so 'new' without the tube snaking out of her nose.
She's glowing, she's radiant... She's happy. Now she can bathe without
worrying about the tube slipping out. She can eat without having to push
it out of the way of the spoon. She can sleep comfy. And now, the stares will
stop when she goes out.

Next would be the appt at the ENT specialist on Friday. That would be the
real green light to go ahead and eat like the rest of us. Pray for her!!!

the surgery to cover the hole in her skull is scheduled for 5th Oct. She's
not looking forward to it. More tubes, more needles, more lying in a hospital
bed. She's hoping she doesn't need get re-admitted at the rehab place. So
yes, we still need you guys to keep her in prayer. It's been such a journey.
It's almost over. Thank you for journeying along with us so far.

the tube in mum is causing her a lot of pain. Due to abrasion, her
nose has become pretty tender and it's swelling. Dad called the hospital
to ask if her ENT appt can be brought forward. Unfortunately the ENT
doc only comes in once a week so she'll have to wait till Friday. Bummer.

But mum was still in good spirits. She clenched both fists and said, "Must
tahan. I've come this far. Only 2 more days. Must tahan." She's amazing
huh. So strong. i sat there, almost in tears... cos i was so proud of her.
i wanted to hug her. i should have.

Jia you mummy... You can do it. The tube will be out, for sure. And mum,
i'm so so proud of you. For pulling through this... with such courage and
grace. And perseverance. You're an inspiration. I love ya.

And yes, it's true. Just like someone said, " Thanks A, you've taught us
all how it really is to fight."

mum and sis brought Hayley, our cat, to see the vet. The visit really cost us...
My dad said he almost fainted upon hearing the amount. It cost so much to love
the cat man...

and i was reminded... how much it cost Him to love us. God loved us so much He
sent His Son to die in our place. So that we can be reconciled to Him. That was
how much He loved us.

I look at Hayley, walking around the house, lying on the couch, sleeping on the
floor... What can she do for me. Who is she that we should spend our hard earned
money on her. Feeding her is more than enough if we want to be kind. But we
brought her to the vet. We want her treated. We want her healed.

He looks at us... going about our mundane lives. Working, sleeping. Clubbing(for some).
What can we do for Him? Who are we that He should send His Son to die for us.
Giving us life and feeding us is more than enough if He should provide. But He sent
His Son. He wants us to be saved. He wants us to return.